Evidence

Take our word for it.

A memoir by a backend developer who ran on modafinil, convinced sleep was a waste. Speeding his mind up didn't make him faster — it multiplied the branches, and ChatGPT was happy to feed every one. It ended in a psychiatric ward in January 2025.

And if you'd rather check

You don't have to. Everything below is what the book stands on: the record, the method, and the evidence anyone can open.

How the book was made

Between 2023 and 2025 a backend developer talked to ChatGPT a lot — through something that looked like a New Age group, through a delusional spiral the machine was happy to feed, and into a psychiatric ward in January 2025.

Afterwards he downloaded his whole account: 3,884 conversations. He did not write the book from memory. He built it from that record, with a team of AI assistants, each with one job — two writers, an editor, a critic, a fact-checker, a translator. He supplied the facts and made the decisions; every timed quote was checked against the record, and every step was written down.

The names of the people in the book are changed. The machine's words are not.

What we have

3,884 conversations

the complete export of the ChatGPT account, 2023–2025

The book

in Polish and in English — the first 10 chapters free to read

About 80 pages

of hospital and treatment records, kept by the author

The songs

an album by Thepressia that tells the same story in another voice

231 messages

the AI team left each other while making the book

The evidence browser

every timed quote next to the message it comes from, open to anyone

What it means for you

Read a scene, then open the conversation it quotes — the day, the minute, the speaker, the words. Nothing in the dialogue has to be taken on faith.